I’m not sure what has changed for me lately but I feel that I have reached a plateau. I’m no longer motivated to go to work or do anything any more. I used to enjoy work and the people there but I feel like I have become isolated. Well I have isolated myself really. I’ve stopped talking to most people and just go there to do my work and leave.
I’m not sure who I can talk to any more or when I do, it seems to make things even more complicated so I just stick to myself. Even if I happen to have a good day, no one notices. Just like when I have a bad day, which seems to be second nature to me now. One friend told me that at least I have my health, which is quite true, but what about everything else?
My birthday is coming up in one week and yet I’ve made no plans, nor am I feeling like doing anything. Which is unusual because on St Patrick’s Day I’ve always gone out and had drinks with friends, but who are they now? Do I really have “friends” per-say or are they just acquaintances, people you say hello to, share a couple of words with and move along? I’m not sure what to do or where to go from here, I’m sinking and am unsure if I will be able to pull myself out of it.